Love at First sight

I don't personally believe in love at first sight, i think you have to at least spend a good amount of time with someone to develop a bound like that. As you can see i am somewhat bored at work and wanted to right about something so i decided to right about this subject. i think the feeling that people say is "love at first" is actually like a higher state of infatuation. Infatuation is what drives us humans to start a relationship with each other. This in not to be confused with lust, lust is more like the sexual feeling towards someone, like seeing a girl and just thinking just about Sex(If you say you have never had these thoughts your LYING!!!). The only bad thing is that infatuation goes away after a while of being around them but then that's when love really sets in given that y'all actually wore a good match for each other. i had a philosophy teacher tell us that even though being with one person for years does not feel as amazing as being with them for only a few months but the pain of leaving someone from years of love will hurt for years.

As for my personal experience with the "higher state of infatuation". i think i have only been in that state of amazement with like only 2 girls before. i am not saying that they wore the only girls i would want to go out with i am just saying that i felt most attracted to when i first met them. Personality wise they wise they wore pretty similar; both wore really easy to get along with, very smart(and in a nerdy way too), and a little goofy but not to much. Differences in them would be defiantly the way they dressed, one was more rocker and the other was little more "preppy". i met the first one my 2ND year at Northwest Vista College in my Cal 1 class. she sat on the table behind me and we would always ask each other question. After being friends for a while i found out she had a boyfriend of 4 years who by chance happen to be a buddy of mine in another class. He was a nice guy so i didn't want to bother them plus he to was a CS major(We CS people have to stick together). The other girl i met quite recently, it was this past summer at SAC. I believe she was single at the time i met her and all through the summer, but i was with someone at the time and i was happy so not wanting to be a ass i just stayed her friend and went on our ways after the summer semester was over. We chat now and then but now she is with someone and she lives far away. i wouldn't mind the drive to see her but if she is already with someone so i missed my chance if i had one.

P.S. i was bored at work writing this but about half way through the second paragraph i got really busy :( but i finished it.

December recap

I know it say recap and that should really be for the end of a month but sence its the break already i am sure the bulk of the events have happened already for this month. Lets start with the Studing... It SUCKED, but atleast i accually brought my grade from a F to a D in discrete math and even though i have to take the class again i dont think it will be as challanging. Sence the teacher grades on the bell curve i think i will spend the next time lowering other peoples grades instead of raising my own it just seems easier lol. I also have to take math foundations again which will kind of suck.

Next on the list will have to be that i started to notice that other notice that i like BG. its no big secret and i am sure she knows but i don't feel like something that should be brought up in conversation main reason is that i am still not sure if i am going to try to make any steps to being more then just friends. I enjoy our friendship very much and i dont think she is into someone like me. She tends to like the more outgoing kinds of guys that probably dance way better then me and go to clubs. Heres a good example she had recently went out on a date where she was really bored, while she was discribing this i though to myself "thats the kind of stuff i do on a date". So rather then her being bored with me as a boyfriend or date i rather enjoy her time with me as a friend. So thats what has been on my mind for some portion of the month.

Last thing on my list is that a my good friend carlos SD will be in town for like 2 weeks i cant wait because i want to try and see if i can get a paintball thing going. Now we are both 21 and see if we can find any good clubs to go to make JN be the desinated driver.

P.S. Visit me at UIW