Love at First sight

I don't personally believe in love at first sight, i think you have to at least spend a good amount of time with someone to develop a bound like that. As you can see i am somewhat bored at work and wanted to right about something so i decided to right about this subject. i think the feeling that people say is "love at first" is actually like a higher state of infatuation. Infatuation is what drives us humans to start a relationship with each other. This in not to be confused with lust, lust is more like the sexual feeling towards someone, like seeing a girl and just thinking just about Sex(If you say you have never had these thoughts your LYING!!!). The only bad thing is that infatuation goes away after a while of being around them but then that's when love really sets in given that y'all actually wore a good match for each other. i had a philosophy teacher tell us that even though being with one person for years does not feel as amazing as being with them for only a few months but the pain of leaving someone from years of love will hurt for years.

As for my personal experience with the "higher state of infatuation". i think i have only been in that state of amazement with like only 2 girls before. i am not saying that they wore the only girls i would want to go out with i am just saying that i felt most attracted to when i first met them. Personality wise they wise they wore pretty similar; both wore really easy to get along with, very smart(and in a nerdy way too), and a little goofy but not to much. Differences in them would be defiantly the way they dressed, one was more rocker and the other was little more "preppy". i met the first one my 2ND year at Northwest Vista College in my Cal 1 class. she sat on the table behind me and we would always ask each other question. After being friends for a while i found out she had a boyfriend of 4 years who by chance happen to be a buddy of mine in another class. He was a nice guy so i didn't want to bother them plus he to was a CS major(We CS people have to stick together). The other girl i met quite recently, it was this past summer at SAC. I believe she was single at the time i met her and all through the summer, but i was with someone at the time and i was happy so not wanting to be a ass i just stayed her friend and went on our ways after the summer semester was over. We chat now and then but now she is with someone and she lives far away. i wouldn't mind the drive to see her but if she is already with someone so i missed my chance if i had one.

P.S. i was bored at work writing this but about half way through the second paragraph i got really busy :( but i finished it.

December recap

I know it say recap and that should really be for the end of a month but sence its the break already i am sure the bulk of the events have happened already for this month. Lets start with the Studing... It SUCKED, but atleast i accually brought my grade from a F to a D in discrete math and even though i have to take the class again i dont think it will be as challanging. Sence the teacher grades on the bell curve i think i will spend the next time lowering other peoples grades instead of raising my own it just seems easier lol. I also have to take math foundations again which will kind of suck.

Next on the list will have to be that i started to notice that other notice that i like BG. its no big secret and i am sure she knows but i don't feel like something that should be brought up in conversation main reason is that i am still not sure if i am going to try to make any steps to being more then just friends. I enjoy our friendship very much and i dont think she is into someone like me. She tends to like the more outgoing kinds of guys that probably dance way better then me and go to clubs. Heres a good example she had recently went out on a date where she was really bored, while she was discribing this i though to myself "thats the kind of stuff i do on a date". So rather then her being bored with me as a boyfriend or date i rather enjoy her time with me as a friend. So thats what has been on my mind for some portion of the month.

Last thing on my list is that a my good friend carlos SD will be in town for like 2 weeks i cant wait because i want to try and see if i can get a paintball thing going. Now we are both 21 and see if we can find any good clubs to go to make JN be the desinated driver.

P.S. Visit me at UIW

The Morning after my 21 st birthday!

Well its the morning after my birthday, and i think i can safely say this was the best birthday i had. Coming up here to Austin started off slow but then when we found a bar that would let both me and my friend in it started to pick up. Having a few drinks, i didn't get drunk but had a good buzz to last me the night. When we got back to our really fancy hotel that night we brought back pizza and watch this Cube movie from the 90s on Netflix to finish off the night. I am actually still in Austin writing this blog but i will be on my way to have breakfast at my favorite fast food restaurant Frozollies.

This is what made my birthday the best one. Earlier that day i got to meet this girl who actually has been my favorite porn-star for the past 6 years.

RollerCoaster of a week

friday 10/29/2010 - I went to the homecoming dance at UIW nothing exciting happened. I did ask a girl to dance her name was Suzan, a pretty red headed girl that went to SAC. only problem is that she had a boyfriend already but at least i got a dance out of it with her. Even though i didn't get a number or anything more out of it i still felt good because i usually dont go up to girls and just start talking to them much less asking them to dance. I am going to work on doing this more, it really is not that bad just do it lol

Sunday 10/31/2010 - Early morning around 1 am my uncle Angel Alvizo passed away at the age of 68 after battling cancer. He was also my god father i said my good byes thursday because we didn't think he would make it though that night. i couldn't bear to say bye again. At his funeral which was on thursday i realized that he was one of the few people that went to everyone of my birthday partys. Angel and my grandpa wore brother and wore the closes of the brothers and sisters. I will miss him :(

Sunday Night - I had my movie night for halloween. i was a little sad because of the bad news but my friend came over and they made my day. i didn't want to say anything about earlier that day because i didn't want to be a downer. The night went pretty well and saw paranormal activity and 28 weeks later, also through the night i lost my hearing thanks to somebody(We all know who it is). I was able to pull of a scare when me and PC went outside to scratch and hit the window to scare the girls inside and it worked ;)

Thursday 11/4/2010 to Saturday 11/6/2010 - I had 2 mid terms and had to take one right after my uncles funeral. also i became sick and had to call in sick to work at UIW and will probably have to tomorrow

My First 2 weekends at UIW

Well its my first 2 weekends working for UIW and i would have to be half and half about liking it. I make extra money and it is easy most of the day but my hours are long, from 7 to 7 and 8 to 4. The work does not seem to be distributed evenly through out the day because it will be dead for like 5 hours then be really busy right before i have to leave so it depends on the day. Well one good thing from the job is that i get to see some of my UIW friends more often and i got to see something last night called "Disney on melted ice" it was synchronized swimming to my childhood song :). also it it had my friend HN in it... i got her some pretty red orange flowers for her performance.

MY first blogger and my first 2 months at UTSA

Well its been the first 2 months at my school and i would say i have licked it so far. The classes are interesting but very hard. i wish i could taken a programming class my first semester but all i got wore 2 math classes, having not been very math focus sense early high school it is quit a adjustment from all the programming classes i have been taking at NVC.

As for social life its been a rocky start, at NVC i knew pretty much everyone that needed to be known but now at UTSA i feel like i just have friends because of RJ and BG. As for BG we are pretty close if you see me on campus you would probably see her somewhere around me. I feel like i get some animosity in my office because i hang out with her so much and she has dated 2 guys from there.One does not care because he has moved on, but one i feel like is getting more lets say "rebellious" everyday not to me but in general ever sense they broke up. As for my personal relationship with BG it is strictly platonic will be that way in the foreseeable future(But that is not to say i am not open to the idea).

Now for my personal projects update. Currently i have three, two being secret for now, but the one that is open for discussion is the app i am working on for NVC its going along well other than i have to parse through some javascript :( which we all know is a bitch but hey whatever it takes to make the money. I guess i could talk about one other project with out giving any meaningful detail about it. Some people dont like computers because they feel like if there is something else with our thinking power or more would lead to our demise but i dont see it that way very much because if a computer though much like a individual human it would treat people like how you and i treat people now, yes you could say we treat each other pretty bad but that tends to be groups treating other groups bad. So if the computer saw its self as one then it would have the same perspective as one of us as a person. More info about my project will come in later post.

--JAM

P.S. thanks BP for this idea about the names if you ever read my blog you will know who you are

P.S.S. Im Sorry for Spelling, Grammer, and Logical Mistakes on my blog